He who seeketh, findeth

September 8, 2013

Border Security

Filed under: Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 2:16 pm

A while back, I listened to a Sermon given by a priest in which he shared his experience of crossing the Canada-USA border. I believe he shared at least three questions that he was asked by a Border Agent: Who are you? Where are you coming from? Where are you going? He went on to expand on those questions and related them to our journey as Christians.

Today at church, I remembered that story. Who am I? Where am I coming from? Where am I going?

A couple of days ago, Jews around the world were celebrating Rosh Hashanah. Some call it the Jewish New Year. However, experts on the celebration mentioned that it is a day of Judgment, Forgiveness, Acceptance, Renewal and Commitment to be better than you were in the past year. Who am I? Where am I coming from? Where am I going?

Why do Border Agents ask questions of individuals when they have (some of) the information in front of them? For example, they have your passport, the picture looks like you, they may see your “profile” in the computer. Why do they still ask you to tell them what they (sometimes) already know? Part of the reason is that as a person responds to the question, the Agent may be able to tell some things that are going on within the person, and from that information, be able to take action that will protect his or her country.

Why should Christians ask themselves these questions? May be a different, but similar question is, if God were to ask me those three questions, how would I respond? Lord, you know who I am, where I am coming from and where I am going. What if the Lord wanted to hear the answer in my own words?

When a Border Agent asks, “who are you?”, they may just need your name. If the Lord asks, “who are you?”, He may need more than just your name. So, assuming your name is “iSeeketh”, He may ask you, “iSeeketh, who are you?” “iSeeketh, where are you coming from?”, “iSeeketh, where are you going?”

When a Boarder Agent asks questions of a person at the border, the goal is to assess admissibility of the individual. The individual’s attributes are compared with certain criteria. If the person meets the criteria, the person’s request is allowed, otherwise it is denied. As it is on Earth, so it is in Heaven. What is the criteria for admissibility into Heaven?

Which borders need to be secured? Spirit, Body, Mind, Soul, Finance, Land, etc…

Where is my body? Where has my body been? Where is my body going?

Who am I? Where am I coming from? Where am I going?
What am I doing? What have I done? What am I going to do?

Gather, Assess, Decide and Act. G.A.D.A.


January 27, 2011

A glimpse of clarity

Filed under: Happiness,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 10:41 pm

Eleven days ago, I went to have my eyes examined. This is something I had been putting off for a couple of years because I “knew” my eyesight was great. Sometimes I would have headaches when I focused too much while working at a computer, sometimes I would not see clearly while driving at night, or in the rain, or in the snow… sometimes I had to shift so that light would come to my eyes at certain angles for me to make out whatever I was looking at, usually words on a sign post or distant magazine. Anyway, during the eye exam, I was given asked to read something, and I could not read, and we finally got “glasses” and I could read whatever I was not able to read before, but I was still not convinced. Towards the end of the exam, after my “specs” or “prescription” or whatever the final numbers that describe what you need to get, were found, the Doctor got me to try these “Terminator” glasses with my final number on them… She made me look at something and told me to read it to her. I did so really quick. I could see. Then she took off the glasses and all I could see was grayish white board! I could not believe it. I expressed my wonderment and she said that once I have my glasses, that’s how much better I will see (when driving – because driving was my main worry…) It was discovered that I am short-sighted.
Today, I went to get my glasses… and finally I was in my car to “test-drive” them. Oh my God! There is nothing that can express the difference between what I can see with the glasses and what I saw all along without the glasses! It’s amazing how far I can read, how much detail I can see on the road or in signs…
All along I thought I knew what was out there – that I saw it all – and that everybody saw it the same way. Now I see that other people see better than others. I knew I saw better than a few other people, but I didn’t know or understand how worse off they were – and when they put on glasses and said they could see, I thought they saw as well as I did, and yet they probably saw better than I did!
Now, onto the main topic… There are levels of seeing, understanding, purity, Holiness,… but I believe that it is hard to appreciate where you are, how far off you are, until you have experienced a significant (experiential) shift from one level to the next. Now I think I can see better with the glasses, but there is somebody who can see even much deeper, to the core of everything. In this case, I am imagining how God sees. That if you were walking with Him and you said I see a mountain. If you have super-sharp glasses or binoculars, you may see living things on the mountain, you may see movement, etc. When He says, “me, too” – He is not only seeing what you are seeing. He is probably seeing the compounds, elements that are making up the mountain, He is seeing how it came to be and where it is going, He is seeing how it fits into the ecosystem, and the Universe. He is seeing why it is there. He is also seeing through it. He is seeing how your memory will never be the same because you have added this experience of seeing the mountain, and may be how the mountain has been changed by your presence.
When I say, I believe God exists, I mean it – but my understanding of His presence is not the same as my wife’s or another strong believer or a prophet. The more time you spend and immerse yourself in something, the deeper your understanding gets, the clearer and truer your appreciation of what is.
I went to play Chess today after a long time… Now I can think of Chess GrandMasters… say, World Champions for example. When they are playing a weak player, or when they are analyzing a game, they are so sure of what they are seeing/thinking about. They see through the soul of the pieces, the core of the game. It is not just pushing wood.
Anyway, that is my glimpse of clarity. So, when the Lord calls and says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”, what do we make of it? I posit that our response depends on how much we need the rest, and how much we appreciate/understand rest. Is this rest, where we will feel rested and be weary again upon being troubled? Is this rest that will last a week? Is this rest that will last a lifetime? Is this rest that once you experience it, you know what it is, and you can spread it? Your appreciation of sight depends on how clear you can see.

December 12, 2010


Filed under: Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 8:37 pm

Who am I?

Why am I here?

Why am I sad?

Why am I happy?

Why am I right?

Is this the correct time to take this action?

What is motivating my thinking?

Why am I hurt?

Why is this song so beautiful to me?

Why do I want to cry?

Why is that voice so beautiful?

Why is this happening at this time?

Could I do better?

Is this the best I could give?

How would I feel if our positions were switched?

Do I do that?

Do I need help?

Why am I this sinful?

What do I believe?

What are my habits?

What do I want to change?

What is my most memorable event with this person?

What are my blessings?

What should I focus on?

What motivates me?

Who should I talk to?

What are my achievements?

When I look back at this time, how will I feel?

What could I do without?

What is essential?

Is this rational?

What do I know?

What knowledge am I lacking?

What can I control?

How long will this last?

What did I accomplish today?

Why do I deserve it?

How do I develop intellectually, emotionally, spiritually, and physically?

Where am I going?

What’s my life’s game plan?

December 4, 2010

Touched by The Cross… a sweet feeling!

Filed under: Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 10:55 pm

One of the sweetest things is experiencing an old sweet memory… Walking down a road that you walked before and had lots of fun doing it, and experiencing the same feeling as you are doing it – of course, enhanced by the sweet memory and the knowledge of what to expect. May be hugging somebody you haven’t hugged in a while, and knowing that the hug expresses your sweet mutual feelings for each other.
It has been a while since I touched The Cross on my Rosary… I touched it, and it had a familiar feel. Out of habit, I think my hand just knows where to go, and I would like to think that The Cross responds (or so I think). Considering the belief and history behind The Cross, it does not appear too far-fetched to say that The Cross has touched me… and it is a sweet feeling!

November 16, 2010

Delaying gratification

Filed under: Happiness,Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 7:56 pm

I would like to be able to delay gratification in the following way:
To keep quiet when I really want to speak.
To say something nice when I really want to say something negative.
To suppress my desires when I really want to exercise them.
To keep when I really want to get rid of.
To dispose when I really want to keep.
To rest when I really want to run.
To run when I really want to sleep.
To embrace when I really want to walk away.
To delay when I desire it now.
To do it now when I really want to procrastinate.
To have hope when it seems dire.
To focus on the downside when I am really optimistic.
To invest when I want to spend.
To give it away when I want to hoard.
To pray when I really want to sin.

November 13, 2010

Kindness as a way of life

Filed under: Happiness,Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 5:35 pm

What if I tried to make kindness the driver behind my actions? Is it possible to be kind and detached?

November 12, 2010

Freedom from attachment

Filed under: Happiness,Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 6:49 pm

May I live without attachments.
Enjoy the things that I have but be ready to let them go.
Be able to lose what I have without getting distraught at the loss.
Care for what I have but not be attached.
Love the people in my life, my family and friends, but not be unhappy when they are not around.
Care for them but not be attached.
Empathize but not be swept in emotion.
Enjoy the company of my friends and family, but continue to be happy in their absence.
Be happy making money, but be just as happy when it is all gone, spent or not spent.
Be glad that I have a job, but be free to walk away if I need to, or I am let go.
Be free to speak the truth without worrying about the consequences.
Choose who I associate with.
Choose how I spend my time.
Subdue emotion to the intellect, but not lose my heart.
Enjoy beautiful moments but not be a slave to their memories or fantasies.
Keep my word but never make promises.
Work to be only better than my old self, but help those who may need my help to be better than their old selves.
Appreciate each day I am alive, but reconcile myself to the fact that some day, I will die.

Is this the key to happiness? Is this inconsistent? Is this possible? Is detachment absolute or relative?

Inspired by the writings of Anthony De Mello…

November 8, 2010

Raison d’être

Filed under: Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 11:10 pm

You are the reason I do what I do.

I think about you all the time.

You make me smile, laugh, cry, stop in my tracks.

I look forward to being with you, seeing you, thinking about you.

I find joy in you. I find sadness in you. I find meaning in you.

I find myself when you are there. I feel lost when you are gone.

I could talk with you forever. I could be with you forever. I could love you forever.

I could listen to you forever.

I know I could do all that because I already do. I have done it for so long, and I do not tire.

I only want to live if you will live. I only want to be there, if you will be there.

All this is true only if you feel the same.

I know you feel the same because you have said so.

March 10, 2010

Thank you, God, for this plentiful food!

Filed under: God,Happiness,Health,Meditation,Thanksgiving,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 12:53 am
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Today, I went to Whitespot and I ordered a pilaf dish to go… and when I got to my room, and opened the to go “box”, I thought the food was not as much as it would have been had I stayed in. A bunch of thoughts crossed my mind. Some good, some not; some analytical, some nonsensical. I was eating while reading something on the Internet and before I knew it, I was done eating. 20 minutes later, I noticed that I was pretty full. Not too full, but full enough. I also know that if I had a little bit more food, I could have eaten it all, and may be I would be a little bit fuller, but I like how I feel right now better. Full enough. I also noticed that I did not say Grace before I ate. So, I said Grace afterwards.

I was wondering why I evaluated the food that was in front of me depending on the quantity. Actually, this has been an on going thing for the past couple of months. I am eating more, I am getting hungry frequently, and I consider the quantity of the food I am eating. I will not go for quantity over quality, but when the quality is the same, my next thing is quantity. Price is not really a big factor. I am thankful that even though I have been eating more, I have not gained any weight, but that is a physiological thing. I am digressing from what I wanted to write about.

I was wondering if, regardless of the quantity in front of me, I could thank God for it, and look at it as plentiful. It is actually plentiful if you think about it. I had none, now I have some. In addition, eating, like living, is a matter of attitude. My thoughts will determine how much I enjoy the food. If I start off “unhappy” with the food, (quantity or other reason), I may miss out on other enjoyable things about it.

All I want is “enough”. Enough food. Enough friends. Enough money. Enough knowledge. Not too much that I don’t have time to enjoy it or that I take away from other people, and not too little that I envy or worry or strive.

Thank you, God, for this plentiful food!

December 28, 2009

You sing very well… Choir Director!

Filed under: Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 10:08 pm

A few Sundays ago, I shared a pew with this guy who was singing very nicely, clear and in tune. I could not resist the urge to tell him that he was a good singer. At the end of mass, I made a comment to him, “You sing very well”… his response, “I am the choir director!”

Later on I found out he was a Doctor – (I am assuming a Ph.D. in music).

Oh, well!

I have been wondering these past couple of days when experiences like mine may happen. Here are some examples:

– The Pharisees surprised at how much Jesus knew of the Word and God. Oh, He was/is God!

– A person surprised at how well Einstein explained a basic science idea. Oh, he was the science-genius.

– A person surprised at how selfless and helpful this lady was. Oh, she is mother Teresa.

– A person surprised at how great this place was. Oh, this is Heaven 😉

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