Today, I went to Whitespot and I ordered a pilaf dish to go… and when I got to my room, and opened the to go “box”, I thought the food was not as much as it would have been had I stayed in. A bunch of thoughts crossed my mind. Some good, some not; some analytical, some nonsensical. I was eating while reading something on the Internet and before I knew it, I was done eating. 20 minutes later, I noticed that I was pretty full. Not too full, but full enough. I also know that if I had a little bit more food, I could have eaten it all, and may be I would be a little bit fuller, but I like how I feel right now better. Full enough. I also noticed that I did not say Grace before I ate. So, I said Grace afterwards.
I was wondering why I evaluated the food that was in front of me depending on the quantity. Actually, this has been an on going thing for the past couple of months. I am eating more, I am getting hungry frequently, and I consider the quantity of the food I am eating. I will not go for quantity over quality, but when the quality is the same, my next thing is quantity. Price is not really a big factor. I am thankful that even though I have been eating more, I have not gained any weight, but that is a physiological thing. I am digressing from what I wanted to write about.
I was wondering if, regardless of the quantity in front of me, I could thank God for it, and look at it as plentiful. It is actually plentiful if you think about it. I had none, now I have some. In addition, eating, like living, is a matter of attitude. My thoughts will determine how much I enjoy the food. If I start off “unhappy” with the food, (quantity or other reason), I may miss out on other enjoyable things about it.
All I want is “enough”. Enough food. Enough friends. Enough money. Enough knowledge. Not too much that I don’t have time to enjoy it or that I take away from other people, and not too little that I envy or worry or strive.
Thank you, God, for this plentiful food!