He who seeketh, findeth

January 27, 2011

A glimpse of clarity

Filed under: Happiness,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 10:41 pm

Eleven days ago, I went to have my eyes examined. This is something I had been putting off for a couple of years because I “knew” my eyesight was great. Sometimes I would have headaches when I focused too much while working at a computer, sometimes I would not see clearly while driving at night, or in the rain, or in the snow… sometimes I had to shift so that light would come to my eyes at certain angles for me to make out whatever I was looking at, usually words on a sign post or distant magazine. Anyway, during the eye exam, I was given asked to read something, and I could not read, and we finally got “glasses” and I could read whatever I was not able to read before, but I was still not convinced. Towards the end of the exam, after my “specs” or “prescription” or whatever the final numbers that describe what you need to get, were found, the Doctor got me to try these “Terminator” glasses with my final number on them… She made me look at something and told me to read it to her. I did so really quick. I could see. Then she took off the glasses and all I could see was grayish white board! I could not believe it. I expressed my wonderment and she said that once I have my glasses, that’s how much better I will see (when driving – because driving was my main worry…) It was discovered that I am short-sighted.
Today, I went to get my glasses… and finally I was in my car to “test-drive” them. Oh my God! There is nothing that can express the difference between what I can see with the glasses and what I saw all along without the glasses! It’s amazing how far I can read, how much detail I can see on the road or in signs…
All along I thought I knew what was out there – that I saw it all – and that everybody saw it the same way. Now I see that other people see better than others. I knew I saw better than a few other people, but I didn’t know or understand how worse off they were – and when they put on glasses and said they could see, I thought they saw as well as I did, and yet they probably saw better than I did!
Now, onto the main topic… There are levels of seeing, understanding, purity, Holiness,… but I believe that it is hard to appreciate where you are, how far off you are, until you have experienced a significant (experiential) shift from one level to the next. Now I think I can see better with the glasses, but there is somebody who can see even much deeper, to the core of everything. In this case, I am imagining how God sees. That if you were walking with Him and you said I see a mountain. If you have super-sharp glasses or binoculars, you may see living things on the mountain, you may see movement, etc. When He says, “me, too” – He is not only seeing what you are seeing. He is probably seeing the compounds, elements that are making up the mountain, He is seeing how it came to be and where it is going, He is seeing how it fits into the ecosystem, and the Universe. He is seeing why it is there. He is also seeing through it. He is seeing how your memory will never be the same because you have added this experience of seeing the mountain, and may be how the mountain has been changed by your presence.
When I say, I believe God exists, I mean it – but my understanding of His presence is not the same as my wife’s or another strong believer or a prophet. The more time you spend and immerse yourself in something, the deeper your understanding gets, the clearer and truer your appreciation of what is.
I went to play Chess today after a long time… Now I can think of Chess GrandMasters… say, World Champions for example. When they are playing a weak player, or when they are analyzing a game, they are so sure of what they are seeing/thinking about. They see through the soul of the pieces, the core of the game. It is not just pushing wood.
Anyway, that is my glimpse of clarity. So, when the Lord calls and says, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”, what do we make of it? I posit that our response depends on how much we need the rest, and how much we appreciate/understand rest. Is this rest, where we will feel rested and be weary again upon being troubled? Is this rest that will last a week? Is this rest that will last a lifetime? Is this rest that once you experience it, you know what it is, and you can spread it? Your appreciation of sight depends on how clear you can see.


December 19, 2010

What to say?

Filed under: Happiness — Steve (Chessiq) @ 5:47 pm

A husband and his wife go out to a company dinner. They sit across from each other. The dinner is a little boring. The husband feels somebody’s legs against his, and he figures it is his wife. He takes off his shoes, puts his feet on the floor and the other person already has shoes off. The play with each others’ feet like this until the dinner is over and they have to go.
They hold hands on the way out, and he opens the car door for her, and goes around to get in the car. Before he drives off, he asks his wife where she would like the heat – on the side, down, or off. The wife sweetly responds that she would prefer the air to go down because her feet were cold. She continues to say that she had them tagged under her chair during the whole dinner. It was warmer under the chair than under the table.
The husband, mouth agape, squints. The wife, chuckling, leans over and kisses him. They drive off.

November 26, 2010

The greatest investor – on love

Filed under: Happiness — Steve (Chessiq) @ 11:10 pm

“The only way to get love is to be lovable…. The more you give love away, the more you get.” – Warren Buffett [The Snowball – Alice Schroeder]

November 16, 2010

Delaying gratification

Filed under: Happiness,Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 7:56 pm

I would like to be able to delay gratification in the following way:
To keep quiet when I really want to speak.
To say something nice when I really want to say something negative.
To suppress my desires when I really want to exercise them.
To keep when I really want to get rid of.
To dispose when I really want to keep.
To rest when I really want to run.
To run when I really want to sleep.
To embrace when I really want to walk away.
To delay when I desire it now.
To do it now when I really want to procrastinate.
To have hope when it seems dire.
To focus on the downside when I am really optimistic.
To invest when I want to spend.
To give it away when I want to hoard.
To pray when I really want to sin.

November 13, 2010

Kindness as a way of life

Filed under: Happiness,Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 5:35 pm

What if I tried to make kindness the driver behind my actions? Is it possible to be kind and detached?

November 12, 2010

Freedom from attachment

Filed under: Happiness,Meditation,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 6:49 pm

May I live without attachments.
Enjoy the things that I have but be ready to let them go.
Be able to lose what I have without getting distraught at the loss.
Care for what I have but not be attached.
Love the people in my life, my family and friends, but not be unhappy when they are not around.
Care for them but not be attached.
Empathize but not be swept in emotion.
Enjoy the company of my friends and family, but continue to be happy in their absence.
Be happy making money, but be just as happy when it is all gone, spent or not spent.
Be glad that I have a job, but be free to walk away if I need to, or I am let go.
Be free to speak the truth without worrying about the consequences.
Choose who I associate with.
Choose how I spend my time.
Subdue emotion to the intellect, but not lose my heart.
Enjoy beautiful moments but not be a slave to their memories or fantasies.
Keep my word but never make promises.
Work to be only better than my old self, but help those who may need my help to be better than their old selves.
Appreciate each day I am alive, but reconcile myself to the fact that some day, I will die.

Is this the key to happiness? Is this inconsistent? Is this possible? Is detachment absolute or relative?

Inspired by the writings of Anthony De Mello…

November 8, 2010

Is it me, Lord?

Filed under: God,Happiness,Meditation — Steve (Chessiq) @ 10:51 pm

When I most think it is not me, it could be me.

When I most want it to be me, it may not be me.

When I am most sure, it may be time to make room for doubt.

When I am most doubtful, it may be time for hope.

When I am sure I know the answer, I still have to ask, “Is it me, Lord?”

November 7, 2010

The Lord Who Answers Prayer

Filed under: God,Happiness — Steve (Chessiq) @ 2:41 am

There are times when we pray for something but we don’t/won’t know what the Lord has done for us in response to our prayer. For example, if we pray for peace of mind even when nothing is troubling us, we may not know what the Lord has done to get us through this day with peace of mind. It could be that there is somebody who could have messed up our day if he or she had called you. However, as the Lord would have it, this person forgot to charge his or her cellphone and it is dead, and may not have access to a phone until this one is recharged. We may never know of this incident, and we may never thank God for this particular day.

We may pray for a happy family, happy relationship, and other needs along those lines. If you think about it, you will realize that there are a lot of things that need to go right for a happy family or happy relationship to exist. For example, some of the things may be: good health, access to resources, fidelity, honesty, empathy, helpfulness, togetherness, sharing, and love.

Let us look at a few of these items and see how the Lord may play a role that we never know that he intervened to protect us and maintain our happiness.

Good health: there are so many ways one could contract disease without knowing that one is exposed to it. How the Lord manages to keep us from diseases that would bring down our immune system, or which our immune system is not yet ready to handle, only He knows. We don’t think twice about, we don’t know what He did, and we may not thank Him for a day gone that we are not sick. However, when we consider how our life is like when we are sick or our dear ones are sick, we realize how much of a favor we have received.

Access to resources: what could you not do without? A job, food, water, car, friends, electricity, internet, computer, the government? Whatever it is, if it is there every day, you start taking it for granted and you forget what it takes for it to work together so that you are happy, or at least needless in that specific instance. What does it take for you to still have a job? For example, if you work for a company that is owned by your boss, and it is just you and your boss… have your considered what would happened if he died? If you would lose your job and the business or company would end, do you thank God for your boss’ life or good health? If you work for a big company, do you thank God that your company is not Enron? That you have a CEO, CFO, and other top executives who are not cooking the books and stealing money, and could risk the lives and careers of so many people? Who gives these people life, a conscience, drive, ingenuity to make the company truly profitable? How did this team come together? Who maintains it?

Fidelity: What does it take to be faithful? Who helps you to be faithful? What circumstances would make you or your partner unfaithful? Who makes sure that your path is clear of temptations? Who gives you or your partner the support system to remain faithful? Who clears your mind of sinful thoughts?

Honesty: Are there times when you would not tell the truth? Are there questions that you would not answer truthfully? How often do you have to lie or asked questions you cannot truthfully answer? Who clears your path so that you don’t have to deal with these situations?

We can go on and on and find ways in which the Lord answers our prayers, or clears our paths of danger, but we don’t think about it, we don’t notice it, and we don’t thank Him for it. He doesn’t stop answering the prayers, and in most instances, He doesn’t even wait for a prayer, He just does it for us.

So whatever is going on, we have to remember that our prayers are answered.

Thanks for reading, and I hope you found that helpful.

March 10, 2010

Thank you, God, for this plentiful food!

Filed under: God,Happiness,Health,Meditation,Thanksgiving,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 12:53 am
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Today, I went to Whitespot and I ordered a pilaf dish to go… and when I got to my room, and opened the to go “box”, I thought the food was not as much as it would have been had I stayed in. A bunch of thoughts crossed my mind. Some good, some not; some analytical, some nonsensical. I was eating while reading something on the Internet and before I knew it, I was done eating. 20 minutes later, I noticed that I was pretty full. Not too full, but full enough. I also know that if I had a little bit more food, I could have eaten it all, and may be I would be a little bit fuller, but I like how I feel right now better. Full enough. I also noticed that I did not say Grace before I ate. So, I said Grace afterwards.

I was wondering why I evaluated the food that was in front of me depending on the quantity. Actually, this has been an on going thing for the past couple of months. I am eating more, I am getting hungry frequently, and I consider the quantity of the food I am eating. I will not go for quantity over quality, but when the quality is the same, my next thing is quantity. Price is not really a big factor. I am thankful that even though I have been eating more, I have not gained any weight, but that is a physiological thing. I am digressing from what I wanted to write about.

I was wondering if, regardless of the quantity in front of me, I could thank God for it, and look at it as plentiful. It is actually plentiful if you think about it. I had none, now I have some. In addition, eating, like living, is a matter of attitude. My thoughts will determine how much I enjoy the food. If I start off “unhappy” with the food, (quantity or other reason), I may miss out on other enjoyable things about it.

All I want is “enough”. Enough food. Enough friends. Enough money. Enough knowledge. Not too much that I don’t have time to enjoy it or that I take away from other people, and not too little that I envy or worry or strive.

Thank you, God, for this plentiful food!

September 9, 2009

Why do you think you are here?

Filed under: Happiness,Meditation,Reason for Breathing,Thoughts and Reflections — Steve (Chessiq) @ 9:33 pm

I was searching for various things online, and I ended up at Successful Blog -> http://successful-blog.com – and while there, I searched around, and found this interesting question that interviewees get asked all the time. I have been asked that question my fair share, but I have never given it much thought outside the job scenario. The question may go something like this: Why should we hire you? or What separates you from all the other candidates that seem to be equally qualified for the position?

One way to approach the question, is to think about the things that you have or you are, that is common to all other candidates or most of them, and cross those out, and whatever remains, is what separates you from the others, good or bad. Usually people will focus on the good (because that’s what the interviewers expect). Usually.

That is about work, and the public image. How about privately? If you were to look deep inside, and try to find out why you are here, what would you come up with? Why did God find it necessary for you to be here? How would the world be different without you? How is the world different with you in it? May be those questions may be hard to answer, and they may focus on the past. How about going forward. Why should you still be here? Why should God give you another instant, second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year… to live? How would you like to be remembered when you die? How would you like your impact (i.e. past) to be when the hour comes? Answers to the last four questions may provide a platform for effective living.

I will spend sometime answering those questions. I think that if those questions are answered, applying for a job would not be just applying for a job, spending time with family would have a different meaning, etc. Life takes on new meaning. We now have different motives for our actions.

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