There are times when I focus on my life and what’s happening to me too much. For example, I would like to live a good life. A life of integrity, honesty, faith, hard work, smart work, etc. It is not easy to live such a life. However, if I died and somebody happened to look at my life or read about my life, he or she would read that sentence in 5 seconds or less, and may be not think about it. I know, I don’t live my life so that when somebody reads about my life, they will dwell on it!
Similarly, when I play Chess, I try to come up with the best moves that I can. When I play a very nice game, I want to share it and be applauded for it. If I can teach people how to play the game better or think through things better, I want to do that. For what? I think this is a very important question. Why do I do the things I do?
I would like to make a lot of money so that financial strife is no longer (or never again) part of my life. I would like to create something that will provide financial security to my family, immediate and extended. I know how it would benefit everybody else, but how will that benefit me? Not just today or tomorrow, but in the grand scheme of things.
When I grow older and I can no longer do some of the things that I do now; when I can no longer work as hard, or as long; when I can no longer stay up for 18 or more hours; when looking good is no longer important; when having things my way is no longer important or feasible; … when I look back at my life at that time, is it going to be worth it? Will I be ready to leave in a couple of days, weeks, months, years?
What is it that I treasure most, such that in my old age, I would like that thing to be associated with me? After death, I would like that thing to be associated with me?
What do people think about it in their old age? What did Isaac Newton, Albert Einstein, Pope John Paul II, my grandfather, people in nursing homes, think? Do they look at their life achievements, or does life take over that they just focus on their “current” situation? After death, do they watch over their life-creations being overturned, squandered, recreated, rebuilt, expanded
All in all? What is the purpose of life? How does it all tie together? Do I need to think about after life? Do I need to prepare for after life? Now?
I know how hard it is to let go of life’s passions – Chess, love, career, etc. How hard must it be to let go of life itself? After all, it is the one thing you have “possessed” all your life. (Does the last sentence make sense?)